Spring Has Sprung!

My favorite season is spring. I love the sense of coming out of hibernation, both myself and the earth. The trees have beautiful new leaves that are sprouting. The air smells fresher, somehow. I can open my windows and get a nice breeze that makes my whole apartment smell fresh. I love the refreshing rain (if we get rain!) and the smell of wet earth. The whole earth is waking up!

On the other hand, I know that summer follows spring, and here in northern California, it can get incredibly hot in the summertime. 100 degrees are not uncommon. My summertime electric bill makes my checking account cry, because I absolutely cannot stand to be hot. I have to run the AC night and day because if I’m hot and sweaty I just can’t sleep. Driving anywhere is miserable, because even though I have AC in my car, unless I have a long trip, the AC barely kicks in by the time I drive across town. I am not looking forward to that.

It’s Sunday afternoon, but I honestly don’t dread Mondays the way I used to. Since I work from home, it barely feels like “work.” I do love what I do, but not having to go into an office doubles the pleasure! So much yes!

This afternoon as I was driving to my Mom’s place to deliver her laundry, I drove by a boutique furniture and decor store (boutique = expen$ive!), they had a chalkboard sign out front that made me laugh out loud! It says “We’re Sofa King having a sale!” (Read it outloud quickly…. 😀 😀 :D)

I’ve started taking a year-long weekly course with a local woman who is a psychic medium. (Don’t judge!) I have always felt that I am an empath, and the need to learn how to “turn off” the cacophony of feelings and emotions I get from others when I am out and about led me to take this course. I’m learning a lot of meditation techniques to help get rid of the “noise” in my head and how to release negative thoughts and feelings using meditative techniques. I’ve only had three lessons but it is very very interesting. There is a group of six other women who are also taking this course, and I love it that we get to do it over Zoom. I am also looking forward to developing my psychic abilities. I’ve always known that I do have some, but always pooh-pooh’d it. We shall see. It is already helping me deal with the negative self-talk that I’ve had all my life. I’ll keep you posted!

I wanted to thank everyone who has been visiting my blog and liking posts! I have 10 followers now, which is fantastic considering I’ve only had this blog about a month. Thank you to you all! ❤

Well I hope you have a great week ahead and a tolerable Monday!


Sunday Evening Musings

It’s 12:30am on a Sunday night (well, technically it’s early Monday morning, but I am not ready to let go of Sunday yet). Weekends are often a combination of relaxation and busy-ness. Between helping my 90 year old Mom, and my own errands, laundry, grocery shopping, etc., time just seems to fly by.

I am a night owl by nature, and while I try to go to bed by midnight, I just didn’t make it this time. When I was unemployed in 2019 for several months, my body automatically reverted to it’s natural circadian rhythm, which is go to bed around 2am and wake up around 10am. Eight hours of sleep, and that is normal for me on weekends, too. However, “they” say that you are supposed to keep your same sleep/wake cycle on the weekends so you don’t get messed up for the work week. One of the joys of working from home is that I can wake up at 7:30 am for a 8:00 am start time.

I love working from home. I believe that so many people who currently work from home are not going to want to change that. Just like there are individuals who can’t wait to get back to the office so they can be around people. One of the things that this pandemic has done for me as an introvert is it has allowed me to stay in my “safe space” while still earning a living. The thought of going back to the office is not something that thrills me. I am hoping that I will still continue to be able to work from home most of the time and then only go into the office for an occasional meeting.

Right now, I wear lounge pants and a t-shirt with no bra most of the time. I only wear a bra when absolutely necessary, and the thought of having to go back to wearing a bra eight hours a day just makes me stressed out. One of the things I’ve discovered is that I am not looking forward to having to go back to socializing, either. And not having to do it for over a year has made the thought of doing it even more dreadful.

My mother is very excited that perhaps by summer we can start having get-togethers with my brother and his wife, and with my aunt and uncle and cousin. That just makes me anxious thinking about it. I’ve lost whatever social muscle I had, which was flabby to begin with (I’d honestly rather be home reading). If you’re not an introvert, you may not understand at all.

It’s like this: All people have an emotional “tank.” Extroverts’ tanks empty the more they are by themselves, and only start to replenish when they’re around other people. Introverts are the complete opposite. It’s draining and exhausting to socialize. After a couple of hours at a party, I am done. I have a hard time making myself go to parties. It always sounds like fun, but then when it’s time to go I just can’t make myself go. The minute I get there I just want to go home. Small talk about nothing, the cacophony — music, people talking, laughing — it’s too much! I just can’t.

I am an Empath, which means that I feel the energy and feelings of the people around me. I absorb it all and if I don’t work on blocking it, I just can’t go places with a lot of people. All I ever want to do is go home and have peace and quiet. That’s when my emotional tank begins to fill.

I am tired, and need to go to bed. At this point, I’m just rambling.

G’night all! Cheers!